Slightly positive Adrienne

Well, I told you I would be more positive. Slowly, but surely. I'm in my apartment on my air mattress watching tv on my new mac book. Tonight I get to see my husband for the first time in five days. What else can a girl want?

I hate NYC

Well it's been three weeks today since I became a New Yorker. Right now, I hate it. We are finally signing an apartment lease tomorrow after been toyed around with brokers and landlords for the past three weeks. We've been denied three times, but one changed their mind a week later. We've lost money. We've slept on our friend's floor, where we also spent our one year anniversary. We had a night in a hotel, but it was the same day the FFA had a "glitch" so Marcus did not get in NY until 11:30 p.m. and we're on a very fixed income so the one night was all we could do. I've wanted to go home so many times and beg Xavier University to take me. If only I wouldn't lose thousands of dollars.

BUT...

Tomorrow we sign papers on a very small, very expensive apartment a block from Central Park on the Upper West Side of new york. I will forever be a west sider whether I live in NY or Cincinnati. But things should start looking up and be less stressful once we move in, which will be Friday. Thank you for everyone prayers and please keep on praying! Marcus leaves Friday for Shiloh so I will live alone! And I was afraid in a empty house in Fort Thomas, so we'll see how this goes.

Maybe next week's post will be finally positive. Until then, I hate NY.

Overwhelmed and Insignificant

Since I've gotten to New York I've had my moments of "Wow, this city is amazing!" and also my moments of "What the crap am I doing here?" There have been a lot more crap moments than wow moments.

Some crap moments have mostly been when looking for apartments. Wow moments have been going to Shiloh this past weekend. Another wow moment was when we went to a bible study at this amazing apartment that overlooked St. Peter's Cathedral and you could see the sun setting over Central Park. Not that I could EVER afford a place like that, but I can imagine.

One con about living in a city of over five million people, you can feel pretty insignificant pretty fast. In a program with 180 other students, you can feel pretty insignificant pretty fast. I think it will take a while before I feel like a part of the city or my program for that matter.

Sorry this is kind of down, I am having one of those days (it's that time of month).
But I get to see my husband tomorrow to celebrate our one year anniversary and everything will be okay again!!!